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Like No One is Watching

I was eleven when I wrote my first story. For all intents and purposes, the fifteen page opus I penned was essentially Nancy Drew fanfiction. I wrote it in loopy cursive with a bright blue erasable pen, the tip of my tongue crimped between my teeth.

It was awful. Like, wretchedly so.

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I stopped writing stories until I was in college. But I never stopped writing. I studied poetry in school. Wrote essays that won a few awards. I even got to travel to Europe for free because of something I’d written about Moorish architecture in Andalusia. Soon I’d even received enough notice to be published in lauded magazines.

But I was twenty-five before I first decided I wanted to be a published writer of fiction.

And that was a whole new game with a whole new set of rules. I bought the books. Read the rules. Thought if I followed them, I could accomplish anything in due time.

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I wrote a novel. It was horrible. Even Idiot Me knew that. Thusly, it was never queried. Then I wrote another novel that was somewhat less awful. Despite Idiot Me (and the disastrous query letter I wrote in SECOND PERSON), I managed to secure an agent.

Was there dancing in the Shire?

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Not quite.

My agent left the business a few months after signing me. And, just like that, I was right back where I started.

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Needless to say, I listened to a lot of Jeff Buckley and John Legend when all of this went down. I didn’t write for almost a year. There were sincere moments when I thought I had much better things to do with my life than sit in front of a computer for hours on end with nothing to show for it beyond a silly story.

Beyond a love of words.

I remember thinking how much of this process reminded me of a junior high school dance. How, even at twenty-six, I still felt like the girl sitting on the shadowy side of the bleachers, pretending she didn’t want to dance. The girl with the long, dark hair and the holstered quip, sneering down at the peons.

But the truth was, I always wanted to dance.

It just seemed like no one wanted to ask me. So it was easier to remain aloof. But it was very hard to stay that way through it all. Because I always felt like everyone around me received offers of representation at the drop of a hat. Six-figure deals in a finger-snap. Movie options in a . . . mouse’s fart? Or whatever.

But the truth IS, that nothing is ever as it seems. Like the man behind the curtain, much in life is a well-orchestrated show.

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I have been working to become a published author for over five years now. This November, I turned in the sixth novel I’ve ever written, the second to be published by a major house. Which means four books I’ve written will likely not amount to much, beyond the lessons they’ve taught me.

And they’ve been very valuable lessons. Lessons about timing and tenacity. Lessons about friendship and fortitude.

But the most important thing I’ve learned is that it does me no good to stay on the bleachers, filled with scorn and furtive longing.

Especially when dancing is much more fun.

 

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Renee Ahdieh

 

Renée Ahdieh lives in North Carolina with her husband Victor and their dog Mushu. Her YA fantasy novel, THE WRATH AND THE DAWN, will be published in 2015. In her spare time, she likes to cook, dance salsa, and wreak havoc on the lives of her characters.

 

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The winner of the ARC giveaway is STEPHANIE GARBER!! Stephanie, please email me your mailing address at brendadrakecontests@gmail.com.

 
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THE WRATH AND THE DAWN (Penguin/Putnam, May 12, 2015):

A sumptuous and epically told love story inspired by A Thousand and One Nights

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Every dawn brings horror to a different family in a land ruled by a killer. Khalid, the eighteen-year-old Caliph of Khorasan, takes a new bride each night only to have her executed at sunrise. So it is a suspicious surprise when sixteen-year-old Shahrzad volunteers to marry Khalid. But she does so with a clever plan to stay alive and exact revenge on the Caliph for the murder of her best friend and countless other girls. Shazi’s wit and will get her through to the dawn that no others have seen, but with a catch . . . she’s falling in love with the very boy who killed her dearest friend.

She discovers that the murderous boy-king is not all that he seems and neither are the deaths of so many girls. Shazi is determined to uncover the reason for the murders and break the cycle once and for all.

 

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Praise for THE WRATH AND THE DAWN:

“Don’t be surprised if the pages melt away and you find yourself racing through warm, golden sands or drinking spiced wine in cool, marble courtyards. This is an intoxicating gem of a story. You will fall in love, just as I did.”

~ Marie Lu, New York Times bestselling author of The Legend Trilogy

“In her absorbing debut, Renée Ahdieh spins a tale as mesmerizing as that of her heroine Shahrzad, filled with lush details and brimming with tension. The Wrath and the Dawn is truly an exceptional story, beautifully written.”

~ Carrie Ryan, New York Times bestselling author of The Forest of Hands and Teeth series

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49 Comments

Julie Dao · December 11, 2014 at 9:52 am

Thanks so much for this funny and honest post, Renee! It’s nice to know that this is the norm: having to work hard, write books that won’t ever see the light of day, experience ups and downs for years. Sometimes difficult to remember when it does seem like deals/movie options happen at the drop of a hat!

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:29 pm

    You’re welcome, Julie 🙂

Mara D · December 11, 2014 at 10:09 am

This is such alovelystory about the path of a writer,and yours in particular. It’s great that you persevered! I can’t wait toread yourbook!

Liz · December 11, 2014 at 10:09 am

Can’t wait for this book!! Sounds amazing Renée!!

Emily · December 11, 2014 at 11:34 am

Man, this book sounds awesome!

Stephanie Garber · December 11, 2014 at 12:00 pm

Great post Renee! And I am so excited about this giveaway! I have heard so many great things about The Wrath and the Dawn, I can’t wait to read it! <3

Emmah · December 11, 2014 at 1:04 pm

This book sounds so good! I can’t wait to read it 🙂

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:31 pm

    I can’t wait for you to read it! 😀

Alex Pierce · December 11, 2014 at 1:46 pm

I’ve already pre-ordered it (after reading an earlier draft) and this book is WONDERFUL, almost nearly as wonderful as Renee herself 🙂

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:31 pm

    Your check is in the mail 😉

Katie B · December 11, 2014 at 3:15 pm

Great post, Renee! It’s nice to read about other authors having as much trouble as most to get published, especially when all around us we hear about authors being snapped up at the drop of a hat. I can’t wait to read this book!

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:31 pm

    Thanks so much, Katie!

Valerie Bodden · December 11, 2014 at 6:17 pm

Thank you for sharing your publication journey. The Wrath and the Dawn sounds fantastic! What powerful endorsements you’ve gotten, too! Marie Lu? Wow! I can’t wait to read it!

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:32 pm

    Thanks for all the kind words, Valerie!

Traci Krites · December 11, 2014 at 6:35 pm

I like reading these kind of stories!!

Shannon · December 12, 2014 at 1:41 am

Aw, this is such a great post! I love that you’ve had the courage to continue to pursue your dream, it is really inspiring. The fear can be so paralyzing, and to be able to keep pushing through is amazing. Also, the gifs made me chuckle 😉 The Wrath and the Dawn sounds so fabulous too, I cannot wait to read it!

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:34 pm

    I’m a big fan of GIFs 😉

Brenda Drake · December 12, 2014 at 10:18 am

Thank you, Renee! I wish I could enter to win an arc – Doh! Love the premise and am so excited to read this!

Sarah · December 14, 2014 at 10:04 pm

I LOVE THIS BOOK SOOO MUUUUUCH!! And Renee, too. I love you, Renee. A lot.

Kierra · December 15, 2014 at 2:11 pm

OMG OMG thank you so much for the chance to win this book <333 I've been craving to read this ever since I read the synopsis!! It sounds so good and I cannot wait to read it!!! Again, thank you for the epic giveaway!

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:38 pm

    You’re welcome, Kierra!

Kelly L. · December 15, 2014 at 2:11 pm

One of my friends already read THE WRATH AND THE DAWN and LOVED it. I can’t wait to get my hands on it so read it myself. ;D<3
Thanks for the giveaway!

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:39 pm

    You’re welcome 🙂

Rachel @ A Perfection Called Books · December 15, 2014 at 3:02 pm

Ohh I LOVE this post! It was so interesting hearing your writing story, so thank you 😉 Haha I love the gif-usage. I love how you kept trying and you managed to learn something new from each book you wrote and pick yourself back up each time. You’re truly an inspiration 🙂

Ahhhh thank you for the arc giveaway chance! I’ve been obsessed with The Wrath and The Dawn since July when I first saw it on Goodreads. I’m dying to get my hands on a copy. Thanks for the chance and happy holidays and lovely post <33

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:39 pm

    You are sooooo sweet <3

Doris · December 15, 2014 at 4:49 pm

Thank you for sharing your story with us and I can’t wait for The Wrath and The Dawn

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:41 pm

    You’re welcome, Doris!

Dianne Rothenbuehler · December 16, 2014 at 1:26 pm

Well great. You made me cry. About the dance. I wanted to dance too even though I didn’t go.

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:42 pm

    Aw, I’m sorry about the tears!

katz · December 16, 2014 at 2:23 pm

This looks fantastic. I love the Scheherazade legend!

Sarah · December 16, 2014 at 2:36 pm

I’m so grateful for your perseverance because The Wrath and the Dawn sounds amazing! Thank you for sharing your experience and showing us all that we can achieve our dreams – with a lot of hard work, of course!

Thank you for the giveaway 😀

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:42 pm

    You’re so welcome, Sarah 🙂

Rae Chang · December 16, 2014 at 9:56 pm

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I ADORE THIS BOOK! Can’t wait to see it in the wild!!!!

Soumi Roy · December 16, 2014 at 10:20 pm

Thank you, Renée, for the honest post. It’s inspiring to aspiring writers like me. Can’t wait to read The Wrath and The Dawn.

    Renée Ahdieh · December 16, 2014 at 11:44 pm

    You’re welcome, Soumi!

Kara · December 16, 2014 at 11:27 pm

Romance (I assume), mystery, & death. I’m eating this up! From reading your journey I see you’ve had a lot of rough patches but your growing. The gifs were funny and added pizzazz. (Does anyone even say that anymore?) Anyway, I really enjoyed reading, thanks!

Dina · December 17, 2014 at 2:12 am

I really want to read this book. The synopsis for the book is so wonderful!

Leslie Lagman · December 17, 2014 at 1:42 pm

GOODNESS GRACIOUS. I NEED THIS BOOK. What an intense spin-off for retelling of Thousand and One Nights! <3

_Sandra_ · December 17, 2014 at 4:40 pm

Gah! The Wrath and the Dawn sounds fantastic, can’t wait to have a chance to read it!
Great post and amazing giveaway! Thanks for a chance to win it! 🙂

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